Heck, it's New Year's Eve!
Can you believe I will go to an actual NY'sE party with people my age? I don't think this has ever happened. For much of my young life I was toted around with my Parents to their parties. And ok, back in highschool I attended a party of mixed ages, where I played perhaps my FIRST Werewolf game. I can still remember stupid Brian, with this confused look on his face as we walked into a club full of Vampires, got introduced to some Prince, and his explanation for us being here: "BUT WE'RE WEREWOLVES!!"
We died soon after.
Ok, so that was also one of two parties where I actually got to smooch someone when the ball dropped. The other was when Chris took me to a party full of college students. The memorable quote there was from some chick, making some comment that involved being amazed that I was actually cute. After that, a couple more parental new year's. . . . some more roleplaying events, and one gathering of three in an apartment. . . But finally, this year, I'm invited to a full-fledged drinking New Year's Party.
So, this is where I should get down to reflecting on 2002. Just like Adam, for the most part I'd say it sucked. At least, the first half. Which honestly sucked so much, that evenly distributed it well covers the year. Mind fucks? had em'. And in all honesty, I think I may have dealed out one or two myself, but just for today let's blame it on the year. The second half was pretty surreal and wonderful. I mean, Hawaii + Getting Engaged. And of course, there's all the friends that saved my life this year. I love my Dave so very much, and happy to get to spend the long years together. But some friends I'm going to lose along the way. That's the way it always is. But I wanted to say for the first time in a long time, I have friends that I love and care about. Seems alot of the time in life, I had friends because I needed people to hang out with. But this year, when things were at their worst, I had people to turn to. People I wish I could take with me.
I've been spending time with the Highschool crew of friends. It's alot of fun, but sometimes it's a bit awkward. I mean, I never spent much time getting to know them in school. Too busy making out and keeping on honor roll. I wish I would have taken the time. They are really funny, odd, and intelligent people. It wasn't until I started dating one of them that I really got to know the rest, and that's just silly. It's hard, trying to work on new friendships over the scattered school breaks, and also a little awkward to see Dave K. with another girlfriend, being smoochy. Makes me miss my own Dave like crazy. Sometimes all the effort makes me miss my friends at Hiram.
Well, this could very well be the last entry before the new year, so here goes the final stretch of 2002 ramblings:
Here's to 2002, a year that gave me the time to break my heart, find folks to help me put it back together, and finally be ready to walk off the stage of Hiram, a bit wiser, a bit more cynical, but breathing easier. And here's to 2003: a year of infinite possibilities full of new places and lives and friends. . . and hopefully a New Year's Eve where I get to smooch my Dave instead of wishing he was there.