This Is Nothing

Insane Graduate School Edition

Sunday, December 01, 2002

Sorry, I still love Buffy

Psychology Major Vampire: "Hey, it's not like you have the patent on bad relationships or anything"
Buffy: "huh . . . . . .wouldn't it be cool if I DID?"


Man, I just watched the best, fucking scariest episode (aside from one other) of Buffy. When the one of the walls read "MOTHER'S MILK IS BLOOD TODAY" written in--what else--blood. . . (shiver!!!!). Made me realize I can't FULLYallow myself yet to believe in ghosts because I'm still too afraid to. There's that whole "look into the Abyss and the Abyss looks into you" sort of thing. Very dorky, I know. Anyway, once again I will proclaim my undying love for this show, as it provokes the imagination, makes me go "oh fuck, this is some bad shit going down" and also laugh my ass off. And cry too. I am a geek.

I also thought today about how possesive/territorial I am of my guys, even my ex-boyfriends, although these feelings ease up after awhile. For the longest time, I didn't think I was possesive, until I started "dating" (a term I use loosely in this particular case) a guy and after two days was already bristling over attentions he was receiving from another girl. I'm more possesive than I thought I was--funny how it sounds better to say "territorial" than "possesive." I know that at least two of my ex's (one's I care about) now have new girlfriends, and all I can think is, Dammnit girls, you had better treat them right. Which is ironic because in at least one case I really did not treat one right. But I blame that on being in highschool and having no fucking clue how to successfully break up with someone. Anyway, it's almost funny. . .almost. It's not really a virtue to be this way.

TODAY: Had great great fun hanging out with Chris and catching up on all the latest in video games and such. We have good fun, and there is never a lack of interesting conversation, or cheap DiCarlo's pizza. Unfortunately, the weather got bad, so I had to watch the creepy episode of Buffy alone while he drove home in the snow to Irish Ridge. Hope he made it there safely!

Ok, That's all for now. Sunday is fun-day, because it's BACK TO HIRAM!!!!