One year und’ COUNTing!

Happy 1st Year Wedding Anniversary to me!

It kindof came out of nowhere, I thought. Suddenly it’s August 18th and it’s been a full year since the wedding? I think partly it’s surprised me because it’s on a Monday. And also—the good part—that the time as flown by.

Every year challenges you, and this year certainly did, but you know what? Being married wasn’t really at all the challenge. Because Andy and I are so similar, personality-wise, being together and working as a team is pretty, well, easy. That’s part of why I felt confident marrying Andy was an excellent choice, because I think we’re in it to win it and we work well together. Being together is just plain fun—something which still surprises me, somehow.

Many times this year I’ve thought about how lucky I am. How blessed I am in life right now. I have this wonderful guy who is about as perfect for me as humanly possible. Though it wasn’t all luck: I worked up the courage to tell him how I felt, and all those past relationships helped me to appreciate what I’d found and what I needed to be happy. However, driving home last night, I came to the realization that though I’m beating myself about the ears concerning grad school, career options, and how to stay fit . . . I’ve already accomplished something huge and valuable that people spend endless hours trying to do. Not that life is a checklist—nothing is ever that certain—but I can stop worrying about FINDING someone to love and share my life with. It doesn’t make me better than anyone else, and certainly I’ve diverted a lot of time to this endeavor at the cost of others. But it’s always been something important to me, and I’ve worked and suffered and risked my way here. And I should be proud of that. And with everything else in life so uncertain, it’s amazing to know that I’ve got the most important thing to me covered.

This time last year, I was so nervous. By the day of the wedding I couldn’t really eat, and easily spazzed out or cried. I’m very thankful for Liz, Sarah, and Alice for being there for me as bridesmaids, because they kept me together and laughing. I’m wearing the pearl bracelet Andy got for me: he had it hand-delivered as I was putting all my wedding gear on. At that point, I had made it all day without crying but this lil’ bracelet nearly put me over. I’m enjoying wearing it today because it reminds me how emotional that day was, and that everything went wonderfully.