GET THEM OFF ME!!!

I woke up and there were spiders crawling all over the walls. Big, black, spindly-legged fat-bodied spiders. I freaked out, and from beside me I heard Dave mumble "It's ok. It's ok."

And then I stared hard at the walls and the spiders were gone. The walls had gone back to being clean and neutral. No spiders. I went back to sleep.

After a long but relatively productive day, I came home and apologized to Dave for likely badly startling him. I was expecting a laugh, or some sort of teasing for the strange event, but instead he shrugged and told me I'd been doing stuff like that for almost a full week now. Apparently, I've been getting up in the middle of the night, stealing all the covers, and walking around the room in the dark, then getting back into bed. Now, Dave is a horrifically light sleeper, so this undoubtedly has had a very negative effect on whatever friendship we have left. I apologized again, and he shrugged again:

"It's ok. I figure you must just have alot on your mind."

It's definitely the truth, whether I'm aware of it or not. I'm starting to have work in lab, so my brain has gone to gear-cranking on that. I've had bills to pay and cards to send. Also, I've been wrestling with the whole issue of dating again, and obviously that's weighing heavily on me. I think it's time. It's rewarding. But it also forces me to think about things I'd otherwise ignore. Like what I really should look for in a guy. Or wrestling with the "who do other people think I should date" vs "who do I want to date" issue. How do I juggle having a guy and having friends? Where do we go once the hormones wear off? How serious to I want to get here? BLARGH!!!

I'm mainly trying to live everything from day to day, both life and love. I'm happy with where life has me right now, even if the future is boiling over with unknowns.

As a side note:
you should all try this choose-your-own-adventure game--Brad The Game