Much bigger post someday pending

At some point, I'm sure I'll post a long, drawn-out entry about the state of my life. But for now, so I can go to bed, I'll keep this short.

On the dark side,
It's a funny thing how drastic turns (don't they always seem drastic?) in your life can make you feel physically carsick? horrified? Very very ill. And yet life isn't all that different. But I hate having to discipline my thoughts so I don't careen into despair over things.

I've gained maybe 40 lbs since highschool. Not cool. I always vow not to look at scales, but I couldn't help it. This makes me nauseous too. It feels like waking up and realizing you've grown a second head. when did this happen? How could it?

On the bright side, Dave will have money soon, and I can start to spend money on myself again. Get a new haircut, start working out more. Finally got some info on my possible project for research. Might get to go to a meeting in Hawaii. I may become a viable, attractive human being.

I agree with Dave. Everything is looking up, almost.