Sketches of Being Home

Oh hell, alot has happened in the last couple of days, and like always I let them build up and then can't possibly cover them all in the blog. Besides, I'm really not sure anyone could wade through them all if I did. So I thought, ok Amber, let's just throw up the 1-2 sentence thoughts that have been skimming through, and at least you'll have something to start with. So, here it is:

Fell down the stairs today, and I'm blaming it on the kitten even though it was probably more my sexy new boots I got for christmas. It's a funny thing when you fall, because it goes so much slower than normal time and yet you can't seem to stop what you're doing. You feel. every. bump, including the one where you bounce your head off a wooden post and just lay there amazed and crumpled at the bottom of the steps.

Been spending alot of time out with the friends from highschool. Some of them I've known since kindergarten, but even the highschool-originated ones are far enough back in my memory that it's all nostalgic. All those memories getting farther and farther away, but hanging out with them brings them back, sometimes in suprising ways.

There's something about Eat n' Park that makes you laugh till it hurts when you're there with friends.

I love second-hand smoke. I love breathing it in for free.

I also am enjoying the blisters my new boots are causing. It's amazing how those little bubbles of water form without you doing anything to will them so, and they burn and scrape just enough that you can get some sort of masochistic happiness out of it, because they are now really YOUR boots, and they'll fit you perfectly some day.

The boots make heavy clunking noises when I walk--I feel like a superhero.

Depression sometimes seems like a luxury--When I have the time to be depressed, I'm usually depressed for awhile, whereas when I'm busy I don't have time to be depressed. Of course then it waits for the vacation. But really, not depressed right now.

Sometimes in life you have to just close your eyes and walk. I have no idea where life is going right now. It's busy and interesting and rewarding. . . and i'm taking it one breath at a time. Trusting God, or whoever.