Lull

So, taking Alice's lead I've started writing a paper journal again. There are just alot of things that can't ever go on this weblog. I can tell you all about my day and such, but if something is really upsetting me, or really making life awesome, there's only so much of it I can discuss online with the world (albeit the small bit of the world that reads it).

Anyway: paper journal. It mainly prevents any of you from having to deal with my weirder dreams and morning poetry. I think in general that's something to be thankful for. It also gives me that "air of mystery" on the bus--it was pretty cool to be "girl who reads The Watchmen" and who can forget "girl who reads Harry Potter books"? Now I'm that random scribbler in the corner that I have been in the past.

So I've been recording me and my thoughts on paper. It got me to thinking about poetry, and other forms of expression, and my pursuit of getting my life framed in it. I've been on stage, I've been photographed, I've been put into a poem or two, and even lately I've made my way into a song. All I do is write, so I've written poems and general scrawlings about lots of people (especially of past loves and whatnot). I think it's one of the most intriguing things that humans do to one another: find ways to frame our perspectives of eachother. And I like seeing how other people frame me. In part, it's vanity. But it's also in getting to see how other people see me. Maybe it's the same for you?

This week is such a contrast to last week. I have the whole day to work on my presentation, so at night I mainly have to wrestle to get myself to bed at a decent hour--like I'm doing now. My commitee meeting is on Friday. Tomorrow is my big, open day for working on everything and tying up loose ends. Thursday is my "practice my talk" day. Friday I have to get refreshments and everything set up, run through my talk some more, and then just give it. Life doesn't get 100% stress free after that, but I'll have directions to go with my research, and a book report due on Tuesday (but I'll have time to read those chapters on Sunday, right?).