It's a full moon again!!!

Apparently, it's the flower moon on May 4th! Personally, I find full moons undeniably lovely--although I also feel bad for being safe and quiet indoors when I may owe it to the moon to go run around outside and look at it waaay too much.

Monday was, well, lovely though quiet. Although really I'm equating quiet with low stress. My microbial interactions class was thoroughly enjoyable, my work is lab appears to be successful, andI got to go home, clean up the apartment and chat with Dave, attend my ridiculously short microscopy lab, and then play Gladius with Ben and friend Matt on the X-box. Then it was a pleasant, thoughtful drive home to the apartment with Weezer's "Island in the Sun" playing on the radio, with the fullish moon peakin' through the trees.

So, you know, when you're driving alone you tend to space out and get all philosophical/contemplative on yourself. Lately, I find I get topics for the day that I want to meditate on--there are things I want to savor and turn over and over in my mind to see every part of it. And tonight's inside-brain topic was the overall concept of being drunk/high/loved. It's this state of mind that you don't really know much about until you're plopped into it, and sometimes before you get there you expend a lot of effort trying to figure out if you're "there" yet. Like drinking and drinking and wondering just how drunk can you get and how will you act when you have reached this point? Wondering if you're high because you're excited or really and truly actually high, when you dont' know what high feels like.

And of course, there's that pesky topic of love, where you spend inordinate amounts of time wondering if in fact you are in love, and whether you can feel more in love than this, and not knowing how you'll truly act at any stage of your love. But unlike the effects of drugs, getting to love never feels the same way twice. So it's the same story all over again.

I must emphasize this isn't really following how I feel now (that's private, fool!) It's just something I am amazed about. I've fallen in love before, and looking back it was never the same. Mainly I've just got this feeling of euphoria today, having done alot of good and fun things, as well as finding out my brother is coming up with Mom and Debbie in July to visit me, and apparently Jason and Marybeth are coming into town around that time as well. Furthermore, Dave's family is coming up this weekend--they are nice folk! And I'm trying to arrange a trip home for a wedding, and I've got friends who want to meet up with me there. . .I DO feel loved. And that's something to be damn thankful for.

Happy Flower Moon!