Being a band geek is cool, but being jobless maybe isn't

So I just watched "Drumline." You know, the movie where they "attempt to make marching band look cool" according to several unamed sources :) Well, I will admit that I enjoyed it, and also that it didn't make it look ubercool. It showed the summer marching band training is hard, and frankly sucks. But a good drum cadence will make you feel cool, even if the cheerleaders and the football players still don't register you on their radar. I'd recommend it to ANYONE who was a former band-geek (and I know that there are many of you out there). Take heed, my brothers and sisters, we finally have a movie just about band. I'm not sure it's a good thing or a bad thing.

Well, I'm a bit bummed. Haven't heard from anyone my age in the Ohio Valley, except a friend from Junior High who now has a beautiful baby girl. I've spent days at home, waking up late and doing dishes for fun. The good news WAS that my Dad heard about an opening for a resident assistant at WV's Governor's School of Math and Science. He taught their last year, and earned a cool 5,000 for less than a month's work. So while he was on the phone with the director, he sang my praises and I am told the guy seemed impressed--last year they tried to get all science major RA's but ended up just taking anyone.

Mom tells me "it sounded like he wanted to give you the job, but at the last minute decided you should do a little paperwork."

So I filled out the application, e-mailed it to the director, with the hopes that by the end of the week I'd hear something. Because according to Mom, last year the committee pretty much finalized everything in the course of one week. And according to Dad, there's an opening because an R.A. backed out, and the alternate backed out.

I'm just frustrated, with everything. Grandpa goes out and looks for cars without me, great. Now I can't located him to ask if he wants to go again. Mom and Dad are at work every day. My favorite forms of entertainment are now washing dishes. I want a job, but can't look for one without a car. Also, I can't honestly tell employers I can work for the entire summer when in fact I might be gone all of july. Everyone tells me just to lie to them, but I hate the idea.

Mom volunteered me to write a report for one of her student's grandparents. She also volunteered me and Don to help out with the collapsed roof in one of our tenant's houses. This is great, sure, it's nice of mom to try to find me work. I appreciate it on one level, but on another I don't want these little inconsistent jobs around the house. I want to get out of the house.

I want to get out of the house. But to do so, I need a car. I have no car. Can't locate Grandpa to help me in this endeavor, and moreover I really just want a car. I don't want something slick or amazing or a fantastic buy. I'd be happy to take our VW Diesel Rabbit from the 80's around, but I can't "Until we put in the new windshield which will be coming in any day now."

I'm just getting claustrophobic. Mom and Dad aren't really in the mood to get me out of the house, I get the impression. Dad is very excited about the RA thing, and how "good it will look on a resume." Which is true. And I'd like the job, especially if it pays half of what it pays dad.

But when are they going to let me know? What am I supposed to do for an entire month? I could still try to help out with 4-H camp maybe, or put in that application at Walden's book store and pray. I just can't get anything done, because I don't know exactly what to do, and nobody seems all that interested in helping. The answer to which, of course, is do it yourself.

This sucks.