Quit picking at it!

Ach! I have this little scab on my neck right near the jawline, and I'm having trouble not messing with it. We learned about inflammation in Immunology today, so you think I would've learned my lesson about creating cell damage. I'm one of those people who certainly can't leave scabs alone, or anything else that bugs me even slightly. Like, today I got the feeling a certain person was giving me the cold shoulder. For the second time, I've looked directly at them, smiled, and said hi, and they've just turned their head and kept on walking. And it's continually bugging me--I'm not sobbing in a corner or feeling less cool--I just want to know what the heck is going on, because I'm betting it's something stupid that maybe I didn't even do. Or maybe they decided they were too cool or my opinions of the state of the lounge are finally known enough that they'll extend their insular attitudes to me too. When I told Sam about it, he said "What? Someone might dislike you for no good reason? Welcome to my world."

Finally, I'm starting to at least accept that I am obsessed with knowing what's going on. I'm terribly nosey, and I've been able to harness some of this into being more social, since I'm not the only one who likes to talk about themselves a little. I can actually ask my deep burning questions and it might let people know I care! It's also a good trait to apply to science, this NEED-TO-KNOW obsession, but easier said than done, my friend.

Speaking of science, I practiced my APEX talk for Prudy, and I was only about a minute over, and otherwise it was pretty much ok! I mean, from a speech giving perspective it could be alot smoother. I could make more eye-contact, speak more clearly. .. . .I also need to use some simpler terms for the general audience. It felt so awesome to have practiced it with her, because I know I could waltz in there now and do it, and it would be ok--definitely not impressive, but ok! And Dave's getting his super-sexxy interview suit on Sunday, and he's going to wear it for me on Monday for the APEX's, and admittedly that's very exciting for me. My parents are coming up too, so it should be good fun.

Thank God it's the weekend.