Sunday, August 04, 2002

I try to avoid freaking out

Yeah, I try, but despite the fact I'm pretty darn good at public speaking, I still have some anxiety about it. I have to give a short talk on Monday about what I've done in the lab this summer. I don't think it's possible for it to be less scary--unless they let me just write a report and hand it to everyone. There will be one grad student, two post docs, and Ned head of the lab. Four people, and altogether nice ones at that. I just don't like having a deadline in front of me. I guess I'm still sensitive to stressing out.

What's really crazy is how little time I have left here. This time next week it will be the 11th. A week from that will be the 18, and two days from that I'll be on a plane and headed home. so I've got two weeks and two days left here. Sure, still plenty of time to see some sights--but I have trouble letting myself take days off, and that will be necessary to do this. Bah, after tomorrow I'll feel better. I leave my idyllic home in Manoa this Thursday. From then on I'll be staying with Cheryl in her apartment.

I'm trying to think of the things I still want to do and see. . . .I want to go to Hanauma bay again for more snorkelling. I definitely want to go to the swap meet and buy a million different hokey things to take home. I should probably go see Pearl Harbor, as my Navy Officer Uncle Mike told me I should. I should visit the creepy Chinese cemetary in Manoa--during the day. I should eat shave ice, see the beaches of Waikiki, walk to the top of Diamond Head. Have my sunset cocktail somewhere beautiful where I can see the sun set on the ocean. As you can see, there are alot of "should"'s in this list. I feel obligated, and perhaps when I leave I'll be really peeved at myself for being lazy and not going.

Well, send your good vibes my way, so my talk will go well, I'll impress the hell out of everyone and then they'll offer me money and grad school opportunities. And hopefully your good vibes will help me remember to bring cookies.

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