WHAT THE HEY

Ok, technically this isn't two posts in a day, but it feels like it. But the weekend, in all its random strangeness, deserves it. So let's call this a weekend in review, shall we? New friendships were discovered, old friends died, people found new paths, others found new hands to hold when things got rough. What blows my mind is this: no one, in their right mind, could have ever predicted this is where we would all be. The things that have occured. . . mind-blowing.

Like, let's take today for example: In one single day, a death was made known (see Alice's log), Sam is in peril of being fired for no good reason, Barrie asked me over for a drink, Nick tells me Karen from my freshman year thought I was really cute but unattainable, Dave found a new way of living, and my old David from home told me that he's still thinking about me (not that it matters, since he's all the way in Philly, and I'm . . .here.) And not that it would even matter if he was here. . . I can't love anyone now, not for a good long time. It reminds me of sensei showing us pressure points and armbars and such, bending joints, grinning and saying "It just don't bend that way!" I don't think I could if I wanted to.

Well, I realized I can indeed move on, after a bad day which was probably not the final one either. I don't know this Dave. . . it's somehow better this way. I don't feel lost anymore, but I still don't know where I'm going. Or what I'm doing. I don't know the right way to make it through this, I'm making it up as I go along. . .Oh hell. Who knows. Onward and upward.